A sweet smile

27 of October 2013

Everyone who knows me well, know that I love being up late. Even when I’m so tired, I just can’t fall asleep too early. Unless I’m cozy in my bed reading a book, just maybe then. Last night, as my eyes were finally closing ( about 2am) I heard some very loud stomping noises. I thought it must be Lemmy going to the toilet. I heard the door, the washing hands…and then I heard him running through the hall way. I got up and saw him staring in silence at Marc sleeping. I walked him back to his bed, snuggled with him and he fell asleep right away. I stayed a bit longer, to watch his features, the lovely perfect profile of his face. I had a very emotional moment then. Thinking that my boy is growing up. Thinking how he doesn’t like mummy’s kisses anymore, just maybe once in a while, just the one. I miss kissing his soft cheeks. I started to feel a bit sad, when the realization began to sink in, that before I know it, the snuggles will be over too. Maybe even the hugs, but I hope not…I soaked in the moment. As I started to get up to leave, I gave him a kiss. He smiled big and turned around, still smiling. Before I left, I kept looking at my 5 year old big boy and his eyes opened for a few seconds to meet mine, gave me the sweetest smile and went back to sleep.

I left with tears in my eyes and a very melted heart.

See, if I would have sent him away on his own, or refused to snuggle (not that I ever would) but sometimes you hear how kids get in trouble or even spanked when they don’t want to go to sleep. I’m so glad Marc and I discovered a different way of parenting. I’m sure I would have missed out a lot of sweet moments like that one if I had have followed some of  the advise and books people gave us.

Once I read : ” what if I told you, It is OK to change your opinion based on new information” I think it summed it up really well.

Here is Lemmy’s beautiful face while he sleeps so soundly. Taken June the 6th, still 4 years old…but soon to be 5.